kaisay karayen tum ko sair tootay pakistan ki???

I just saw this amazing song that GEO has come up with. It's sad, it's heart wrenching, but it's true...we have been reduced to asking...

"bolo shaheedo kaho shaheedo kyun banaya pakistan???"

nnn forced to say

"Din, aqeeday aur mazhab kai naam pai lashain girti hain
Mayain apnay putron kai tukron ko lai kar phirti hain
Umeedon ki kaliyan iss gulshan mai ab kab khilti hain....

kis ki khatir tum nai di qurbani lakhon jaan ki???"

but even then

"phir bi GEO pakistan..."

do we have any other choice???
we lost the dream in 1971 and we glossed the whole episode over. we continue to make the same mistakes. we continue to divide our people and then mourn the consequences. many will express their anger over this song, it's bold introspection; they will slam the tv channel for it's "doubts" but let's be honest for once, so that we are able to clear our vision of the cobwebs of expediency, of ignorance, of all-is-well mantra. that's a sign of those who have stopped living...and we can't do with dead morons, there are very few humans around nyways..

"insanon ki iss basti main hai kami insaan ki..."

ammi tells how nanabbu came running into the house as he heard about the surrender of pakistani troops in dhaka and took out his prayer mat, knelt over it and started weeping and praying. He left kashmir to make sure that his children grew up pakistani, gave up on relatives back home and headed for the land of the pure, the Promised Land. he married his daughters off to pakistanis to maintain that identity, striving for that "glamor" of which, he risked breaking off ties with his family. He managed to go back just once or twice, not being able to attend his parents' funeral, attend the family gatherings, all for the HOME that he made here.

"Bolo shaheedo, kaho shaheedo kyun banaya Pakistan??"

and now when i write these words, i feel guilty for asking this question of those martyrs but probably this may wake us up.

and i culdnt keep back my tears as i heard this song...
umeedon ki kaliyan khili gi kabi yahan pai????

There's no use thinking wen u can't act, expressing wen u arent being heard, screaming it out in your heart when u can't in others', no use being wen you are invisible.

Frustration rots the brain.

Random ramblings

-It's eid in america today. The arabs celebrated it yesterday and we'll have it tomorrow. Three eids in the world means three eids in Pakistan. One section going with the Saudis and they manage to see that elusive moon on the 29th night too to validate their claim, another going with the more common tradition of celebrating eid one day after the Saudis and the third more law abiding citizens going with the actual sighting of the moon in the country instead of basing their calendars on any Arab agenda. That's the issue with being too emotional about religion. Fine, I am not against pan islamaism bbut it shouldnt defy logic. Pakistan is a reality and an entity in its own right. Why shouldnt the people of Pakistan be celebrating eid on the same day. The saudis are not our mentors PLEEAZE.
anyways, Happy eid to aapa and bhaijan. Fine eid after just getting off from 24 hours duty and well good luck that there are so many pakistanis in such a small town such as saginaw.

-These days I am battling it out between engineering and politics. I so want to write something but I am not, just to give the impression that the enginner is winning when I know sooner or later it will lose, atleast for the time being. But it has to win eventually. No excuses, otherwise because I chose this field myself thinking that the social scientist could do without the technical knowledge but the engineer couldn't. I didnt foresee the constant beckoning of the politician. hmmmph. Gotta force myself like abeera put it.

- The big man goes out of the field with just 3 runs to his credit. Don Bradman went out on naught when he needed just 1 run to make his test average 100. big players miss out on big ones. No worries INZI.

-A friend just wrote me a testimonial, right out of nowehere. We made up after a cold war of about 2 months but im glad it's over.Besides all the nice things such as saying that I never hesitate to apologise (seee see what friends say abt me!) and many others, he compared me to Imran Nazir. OK, I thought it was more of an affront to Imran nazir than to me, for several reasons. His fans were obviously heart broken and now they won't admit they were ever his fans. Look at the tragedy of it all and infact they are changing poles and mind u some real beauties for that matter. POOR, pOor Imran Nazir.

And well also because I m not a batsman atall and that is majorly due to Aisha's ummmm..welll pathetic bowling. Like c'mon how am i supposed to learn any batting if all the balls i get bounce three times before they reach me and at snail pace. The relatively little straight batting that I do are either back-foot stuff that I go to when facing a fast ball and for obvious reasons too. That's the only way I know how to play a fast ball because my reaction time isn't fast enough (aisha's bowling again) or the instinstive front-foot cover and straight drives on full pitched balls or well yeah the front-foot plunge at those siilllloow silllow balls that aisha entertains me with. I am a bowler and i dont like it when people forget that. C'mon someone said I had genuine pace which was just accidently discovered when in A-LEVELS a natural spinner for starters, decided to go for the straighter faster delivery in the practice nets because she was unsure about the spin her ball may undergo. And so died the SPINNER, the leg spinner for that matter.

Anyways, watever the comment bhai can be proud of those big ground matches and the basement sessions and the constant yelling at the two baby sisters because they were hard to teach. He made something out of us...oooh i forgot to mention aisha bats extremely well, YAH because she gets to practise on my bowling...:)

-nO POLITICS...no no no. Just one comment; Im glad Imran khan's right there with all the big names in those polls and MQM, huh!!! absent from two provinces and a mere 4% in Sindh and 1% in Balochistan. There you have it Altaf BHAIII.